I'm glad that Papa says he's not going to change anything, he's not going to give the stuff away. Grandma said that after Ma was gone for a long time in Room, they gave some of her stuff away because it hurt a lot to look at it. Especially Grandpa, Grandpa couldn't even stay in Hammock House because it hurt too much. But Grandma still kept some stuff, she just put it all in one of the rooms in Hammock House so that she didn't have to hurt everywhere she went but she could go to Ma's room if she really wanted to remember.

I'm not ready to tell Papa that maybe we should do that, because... because if we keep everything where it is then maybe it will feel more like Dad's still here.

Maybe.

"I want..."

I just want Dad here. I just want Dad. I don't want just his watch, I want Dad.

"...yeah, maybe the watch is okay," I tell Papa, even though my voice is wet like crying. "I wish this was a bad dream."